it's only change; only everything I know

Wed, 25 Jul 2007 08:11:09 GMT

Aah, a free day. Wonderful. Kyo, I apologize for the other day. I must have blacked out. Perhaps not enough sleep?

If anyone wishes to be my roommate, do let me know, although I have to admit that I am looking forward to some peace and quiet. The hotel and its rooms have been so hectic that I've been unable to meditate, and it is certainly taking its toll on me. I feel as if I'm just one pulsating bundle of nerves..

So I plan to be in the zen gardens for most of the day if anyone needs to reach me.

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 17:34:31 GMT

I'm so glad to be out of that fuckin' room, you have no clue. I mean, what's with the fucking mage robes? I'm not one of those Lord of the Rings losers. Fuckin' Frodo.

Does anyone want to do anythin' today? I'm bored as shit up here on my own.

Sun, 17 Jun 2007 18:13:48 GMT

These shoes are terrible, and they really don't go with the new outfit I found.

How gorgeous is this?

Anyone else want to go dancing?

Sun, 03 Jun 2007 22:37:55 GMT

Well, this is strange. It's been awfully quiet around. Even with my 'niisan here.

And did I hear correctly? Did Ari reappear?

Was it some kind of floor effect, Ari?

Mon, 21 May 2007 08:21:54 GMT

... well, it's become frighteningly apparent that I am utterly horrible at dancing. I caught myself in the mirror, and had the urge to break it.

It does help, however, that I saw my 'niisan dancing too..

.. and one of the songs was slow, and he held me just so.

We're roomed together again this week. It's a pleasant surprise - to have him so close after waiting so long. And the sex? It's much better than I thought it would have been.

.... n.. not to say that I thought it'd be bad! I .. well, of course, I fantasized it would be amazing, but I .. we... he..

..oh god. My foot fits so well in my mouth.

-26-

Thu, 03 May 2007 03:30:38 GMT

...niisan, would you be my roommate tonight? I don't care which floor it's on.

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 05:56:28 GMT

Oh! So happy..

I feel like my heart's about to explode. I .. I'll be in the lobby.

-25-

Mon, 23 Apr 2007 13:08:25 GMT

Apparently, the hotel saw it fit to not allow me to have time to myself this evening. When I opened the door, it was filled with screaming teenagers, all screaming my name and clawing me. I didn't have enough time to close the door before they pulled me in and tore my robe.

So, I'm happy to report I was able to use a rather lovely fire spell to take care of them. However, they fucking regenerated, and almost left me naked.

I need to get out. I don't care with who. Misery loves company.

~~Hey! Put down that ofuda-- I -- get the fuck away from me. フェニックスの矢! !~~

(OOC: The idea of Marron cursing amuses me greatly. The fanboys/girls are putting him in a very poisonous mood.)

-22-

Sat, 31 Mar 2007 14:39:55 GMT

... what the hell are these things and why are they on my bed?

This hotel has made me paranoid, now. I'm expecting them to come alive and try to eat me, commenting on my fruity flavor.

..whatever flavor that may be.

And thank you, everyone, for your kind words. I feel a little better, albeit still very homesick and kind of miserable.

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 21:41:28 GMT

As of late, I've been feeling homesick. I know most of the people in the hotel are feeling the same, but I feel completely out of my element. I was used to it, as a child, for my father to be gone weeks, or even months at a time, and since my mother died so long ago, I've gotten used to not seeing her.. Although to be honest, sometimes I can still feel her presence, even here.

But I have never been separated from my niisan for this long, even in death - though I don't know if this is true, because I'm unable to say how long I was dead or in that other world. I miss him. And I worry so much that I nearly make myself sick.

The others, I'm not so worried about. Gateau - well. I have all the confidence in the world that he's doing fine. He's a difficult man to get rid of (and believe me, I've tried). The girls - Tira and Chocolat. I think that as long as they have my brother, they'll do well.

In fact, for all I know, my brother is relishing not having me following after him. (I hope it isn't true.)

Those of you who do have family members here (Kyo seems to have plenty - from what I heard, there are quite a few Sohmas.) are lucky. And I apologize if I've been antisocial, Ari. I've had quite a bit on my mind, as you can see.

..avoidant?

Wed, 28 Mar 2007 04:06:54 GMT

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Disorder:	Low
Schizoid Disorder:	Moderate
Schizotypal Disorder:	Moderate
Antisocial Disorder:	Low
Borderline Disorder:	Low
Histrionic Disorder:	Moderate
Narcissistic Disorder:	Moderate
Avoidant Disorder:	High
Dependent Disorder:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! -- -- Personality Disorders --

-21-

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 04:39:37 GMT

... Sigh. Nothing good has happened lately in the hotel. With Ari drunk or dead or god knows what, and me with that horrid shrew yesterday..

And now this.

The first person to pinch my cheeks dies.

It's as simple as that..

Now, then. Who's my roommate this time?

-19-

Wed, 07 Mar 2007 14:11:44 GMT

Oh, excellent. Ari, would you care to be my roommate today? I've really missed you these last few days. With.. you being a vampire and me being rather violent yesterday.

I believe I'll choose room five - it seems calming, and perhaps the higher up I go, the demons won't bother me. I'm tired of fighting.

Besides, if I'm lucky, we'll spend most of the day in bed.

-18-

Tue, 27 Feb 2007 23:18:26 GMT

.. I .. I don't know why I suddenly feel so angry all of a sudden, but.. well. It might be best to stay away from me. Because.. well, to be frank, I could light you on fire without even thinking about it.

That, and I have an urge towards sharp, pointy objects. It's really rather unsettling.

Are you feeling better, Ari? Less.. dead?

-16-

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 05:21:39 GMT

Aah! They're everywhere!

They're huge, and they won't go away! Damnit!

They burn really well, but.. I don't want to exhaust myself. I-- .. Ari, are you okay? You sound strange.

-15-

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 22:49:03 GMT

How lucky am I that I get to room with Ari again?

There must be something in it to let lovers be together on Valentine's day.

Even if I have to wear a dress again.

-14-

Sun, 04 Feb 2007 01:00:46 GMT

I don't know why I'm feeling so homesick lately. I've been away from my family for a few days before, but today, I just .. I miss my brother and father so much.

Does anyone want to be my roommate today?

Thu, 01 Feb 2007 21:18:15 GMT

Get your own valentinr

-Day 13-

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 18:56:07 GMT

I'm still stunned that somehow Ari and I had sex. Sex. And granted, my response wasn't the most mature, but .. having sex before my brother is .. almost inconceivable.

I think I might be in love. It's so soon, but.. what a wonderful plushie.. It's a little bear! Isn't that cute? Oh, little bear.. I love you...

Well.

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 04:30:59 GMT

I'm not a virgin anymore.

This is an exciting new development.

~~IHADSEXBEFOREMYBROTHERDID! HAHAHAHA!~~

Day 12

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 13:45:27 GMT

...well. Apparently, it's a good thing I learned how to swim.

My room is full of water. And my roommate's name is River. ~~hee hee.~~ The hotel has a strange sense of humor. I don't think I want to be in my room for very long. Knowing this place, there's a shark about to eat me or some sort of merfolk ready to... seduce me, or some rot.

Day 11

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 05:16:10 GMT

I must say, I'm thrilled with the new room assignments.

And Stan is a girl.

~~the laughter.. it hurts.. I can't stop laughing..~~

...but.. my hair..

.....good lord, I just looked in the closet.

Day 10

Sun, 07 Jan 2007 04:13:58 GMT

... that scratching noise will not make it easy to sleep. Is there someone stuck between floors?

Sigh. Makes me yearn for the night before, when all I had to deal with was a demented shadow singing songs by a group known as the 'Spice Girls'.

I have another new roommate, of course. x_angry_kitty_x . I've seen him around the hotel once or twice, but now I feel .. strange towards him. And I don't know why.

~~Could this be love?~~

~~.. or indigestion?~~

...

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 22:38:01 GMT

Although I don't feel as drunk, I'm still rather confused.

And.. this quiz thing .. well.

• You must tell 3 people about this game.

• Carrot is the one that you love.

• Ari is one you like but can't work out.

• You care most about Apricot.

• Tira is the one who knows you very well.

• Mille Feuille is your lucky star.

• Lovers in a Dangerous Time is the song that matches with Carrot.

• More than Words is the song for Ari.

• Learn to Live With What You Are is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.

• and Inbetween Days is the song telling you how you feel about life

...very confused. And making me think I shouldn't have put songs that I've heard recently into the slots.

Marron's Logs

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 08:58:11 GMT

With Roxas:

http://community.livejournal.com/toujourslogs/56062.html#cutid1

With Ari and Stan

http://community.livejournal.com/toujourslogs/53082.html#cutid1

With Ari
http://community.livejournal.com/toujourslogs/43627.html#cutid1